I received an email from our agency this morning that was from Eastern, and it was confirming that we have our first meeting with Maddyx on Monday at 10:00 a.m. I cannot believe that one week from today we will be meeting our son for the very first time. At this point he's somewhat of an enigma to me. I mean, I do know he exists. I've seen pictures and video, but actually holding him in my arms, changing his diapers, feeding him his bottles and being his Mom, is somewhat unreal to me at this point. The nerves really kicked in on Saturday. Up until that point I was feeling good. Not nervous at all. Which for me, is totally out of character. Well, my true character has shown up. Darn you! Stomach's in knots, breathing feels heavy, butterflies are a fluttering....yep, that's what's going on with me. And it's only going to get worse over the next week. Oh boy... this is not going to be good. I wish I was more like my hubby. He's doing just fine. Excited to go over to Seoul, excited for our trip, excited to meet Maddyx and bring him home (which don't get me wrong, I am too....just can't enjoy it with the abundance of nerves that are currently present within my body), and just remaining calm and enjoying these moments. Not nervous at all. Really? Whatever! Maybe I'll be like that in my next life. Maybe.
I have accomplished a lot though. This will make me feel better.....
Flight booked, hotel booked, a somewhat organized list of things to-do/see while we're there, bags half-way packed (my half...again, the nerve-ridden planner), Maddyx's bag of "stuff" for the flight home ready, bathtub ready for his first bath....with toys, safety outlet covers in throughout the house, bottles washed and ready to go, blankets & sheets all washed. I still have more to do, but I've got plenty of time.
I am open to any words of wisdom and/or tips/advise from any of you AP's that have already brought your babies home. I'll TAKE ANYTHING!!